It has been awhile since any type of update has been done on this blog, I suppose it is because life happened. Before I start the post I just want to say Happy Holidays. Merry belated Christmas and I hope everyone will have a good new year and a better year.
I believe that as we grow older we start to figure out what is truly important in life: family, friends, a significant other, career, popularity or even fame. Once we figure out what is important to us we start to evolve and shift our focus toward that; which is human nature. Through different hangouts, dinners and just being drowned in my own thoughts I start to dwell on the idea of making myself happy.
Many think that I am a happy person with zero problems because I am usually smiling and never talk about my problems. The truth is though; my life is not perfect and I have problems, I am just handling it differently. This past two weeks I have been the hardest and I did not think I could get myself out of the situation but then, I took a deep breath and cleared my mind. I told myself with every problem there is always a solution. Right now, I am not exactly sure if I have found a solution or not, however, I am not stressing. Being stress does not solve problems; stressing will only cause sickness. I rather be focusing on my family, my dream, my career, my life and my happiness. Problems will never stop coming; I won’t neglect them but I won’t make them the focus of my life because it is not worth it.
Right now I want to focus on being better for me. I believe that only when I become a better me can I be better for the people around me and eventually improve my circumstances and solve my problems. I have tucked away the want and the need to fit in. I have tucked away the feeling of being needed and the idea of needing someone. I have tucked away hatred and dislike that I had accumulated with time. I believe that life is meant to be enjoyed without throwing responsibility away; to give thanks for the moment despite any negative circumstances. I believe it is ok to take a trip once a year, it is ok to eat good food or go out once a week, and it is ok to buy something for myself once every two week. I believe that it is ok for me to be selfish and to make me happy because I have earned it.
A co-worker of mind says he gets dark around new year because it is as if we are wishing our life away. He says he hates watching the ball drop, it is as if we are waiting for our life to “drop”; a new year means another year of life has gone by and we are close to death. SUPER dark, I would say. Although it is dark, he is not wrong. Our life is short, each passing year is a passing year of life for us as well. However, the wastefulness of our life span goes beyond just the new year. Our life span gets wasted at every day, every hour, every minute and every second. We all waste our life away everyday as we wish for working day to end so we could go home. We wish our life away every day when we should actually care for it as if it is treasure. We often forget that we are not entitled to life, we are given our life; life is precious.
I cannot guarantee that I will not wish my life away or stop stressing after this post but I will certainly try to do it less and less each day. I don’t believe we should live life based on our in-capabilities; rather I believe we should live life making the most of our capabilities. Life is not meant to live with full hardship, hatred or grudges; we don’t have forever, we are not even guaranteed tomorrow. There is no point of living in sadness, holding on to grudges and be bounded by what we cannot do. Forgive those who have wrong you; make a better tomorrow, love with all your heart and live with all your might for today.